late reply was just scrolling through c/asklemmy

I read that Asian Male and Black Female are the most “undesirable” in the western dating world… so… yeah…

Tough luck

Which is why my older brother is going back to China for marriage lmfao

Cuz he aint ever gonna get with a girl here in the US, hes socially awkward af, and there’s just a lot of Asians girls dating white dudes… so yeah…

I don’t feel like going back to China due to political reasons so I guess I’ll just remain single for the rest of my life, since I’m an “undesirable” to most people… 🙃

Edit: I mean I guess I can go to Taiwan, Singapore, Malaysia, and maybe meet ethnic Chinese… but I doubt my US Citizenship and being able to come to the US is even desirable to them when considering… um… current politics… 👀

But then again, my brother has a visa ready to go back to China and presumably gonna bring some girl to the US after they get married… so like… idk wtf is he even doing, my mom orchestrated all his dating stuff… arranged marriage basically… 🤷‍♂️

based

I thought about the tree thing alot.

I mean coffins seem so lame… tree is new life, its kinda beautiful in a way that is hard ti explain

Flowers in the Attic (2014)… very Alabama-y 👀

Also now I have a phobia of my mother poisoning me

I don’t even spotify 💀, I’m an amateur when it comes to music…

Noooo Jerry, Do Not Develop The App

You’ve doomed us!

Hey I heard about a bunch of men that want to be going their own way, maybe that’ll be a nice spot to put those people

glances at OP’s instance name

Wait till your phone start generating fake photos of your past to gaslight you

Hell, any digital journals you keep could be a fake one replaced by AI

Careful, 'Murica is gonna invade your grandma to bring democracy to her organs.

Yea there is a weird “de-sync” issue with appointing a mod [User B] from lemmy to community created by piefed then the mod can ban the original community creator [User A] but that only applies to User B’s instance, so now anyone on User B’s instance sees a different version of the community compared to everyone else. And anything User A does from that point will never federate to User B’s instance’s version of the same community. So you’d need to end up contacting the admins to intervene to resolve this “power struggle”.

Eh, it’s a different place now. My family who worked there in the 90s and 2000s had completely alien experiences to when I went there in last year. All I’m saying is it’d be wise to be aware of what options you have.

Mental health acceptance is stilk a huge issue. My mom told me about a story where allegedly someone in either her village or a neighboring village (can’t even understand what exactly she said because I’m not as fluent in Cantonese as English) had a family that has a son that “doesn’t act normal” and instead of trying to help, they perceived him as a threat and just locked him inside the house, barely treated him like a human being and only fed him out of pity… like an animal on a barn…

And also my mom just told me a story on WeChat about in Guangdong, an autistic person that got accepted into a University but then they found out about his autism so they expelled him for that after he already got accepted. So yeah… that would’ve caused outrage in the west. There is not really an ADA equivalent in China.

My mother kinda lowkey hates me for having depression… can’t imagine what’s its like in China, everyone would just call me “lazy” or “useless eater” or some shit… China is very conservative, its MAGAland but with Chinese Characteristics.

Also, if I posted any of my posts that I posted here about my mother’s behaviors on the Chinese internet… oh jeez they’re gonna just attack me for being “unfilial”, at least westerners sort of sympathize. In China, parents are always right, the kids are always wrong.

My ideal country would be one with a lot of Asians (or more specifically, ethnic Han Chinese) but that are westernized. Cuz then I have safety of not having to deal with racism, but also not having to deal with conservative culture bullshit.

Like just build one massive island then gather all the Westernized ethnic Han Chinese there, build our own country, without authoritarian bullshit, then I’d be safe.

This season of House of Cards is thrilling!

grabs popcorn

oh wait, I’m living inside the tv show… 🫠

Omg TIL.

I thought identical twins were extremely rare…

Did they specifially pick an actor that have an identical twin? Lmao

According to google (I am not a lawyer) I don’t have it anymore the moment I got US citizenship since they don’t do dual citizenship and honestly I don’t really want to live in mainland China.

If I had to leave the US, I rather go to Canada, Australia, or perhaps EU for asylum…

Or perhaps Taiwan, or maybe Singapore.

I know from your post history, you seem to like PRC, but please understand that I have a personal grudge against the CCP, I was the second child (precisely a second son so there was no exemption whatsoever) in my family born during the One Child Policy, I really hate the fact that they tried to terminate me when I was still a fetus, then afterwards deny my existence by refusing to issue my legal documents until they made my parents pay a huge fine… which feels like extortion IMO.

I feel like my existence in China is “illegal”, I feel rejected. I don’t wanna be there.

I have an existential crisis over it… I’m not even supposed to be alive in this world, I’m an anomoly.

my next door neighbor has a camera that seems to look like a ring… I mean I’m not gonna approach their door for no reason to check if it is a ring, but like… if it is a ring… then oh well, NSA is right by my door.

And I’m in a deep blue city btw… neighbor is a renter and is Black, so… yeah… minority working class inadvertantly have a spy camera on their door

Front door is like right next to each other… like the camera can see me walking in the the path into my own house, it makes a sound when it detects movement and I heard the sound thing trigger even when walking only on my side of the yard

…And my family are immigrants…

so yay, our movements are probably in an ICE database

I had a school trip and someone dared another kid to touch an electric fence… so this kid touched it, but nothing happened.

Then they dared him to touch it again, but like touch it for longer, so he put grabbed the metal wire thing for like 5 seconds… again, nothing happened

I think the electricity was turned off.

The actor for Sarah Connor has a twin? Nani?

Afaik, it uses secure boot and/or TPM shenanigans to decrypt L1 Widewine, so I don’t think emulating it would work.

Btw, Unlocking bootloader on Android also cause the video to revert to SD even if you haven’t replace the rom yet.

“Guilty” isn’t the right word, more like “I don’t wanna be ‘made an example out of’” by the media as “Immigrants living on welfare”, since I’m foreign-born.

(Not first-hand knowledge) I read somewhere that tonal languages such as Chinese make it difficult to express sarcasm the same way Indo-European languages do, with accent and inflection.

First hand knowledge, I’m Chinese American. My mom is from Taishan and I grew up in Guangzhou for the first 8 years before immigrating to the US. My mom uses scarcasm a lot. We speak Cantonese at home.

Example:

“我想去睇橋” (“I wanna go see the bridge”; a euphemism for I want to go to the nearest bridge and jump off to kms, and my mom knows the meaning of this btw)

Mom: “喂，使唔使載埋你去啊？” (“Hey, do you want us to drive you there?”; said in a very unusally happy and uplifting tone, as if she’d be glad to see me die (I mean… not really, I don’t think she really wants to see me die, I hope not, she’s just playing mindgames to “stop me from ‘attention seeking’”, she doesn’t understand what depression is.)

Or sometimes I get mad and refused to eat and mom was like: “哇，係唔係想練神仙啊？亦好呀，慳返啲食嘅。” (“Wow, are you trying to become an immortal being? That’s great, we can save some food”; again, with that weird “fake happy” voice.

And I instictively knew these were sarcasm.

My mom cried in court for a civil lawsuit to “try and win the judge’s sympathy” after the judge had already made a decision that she doesn’t like.

Like it was literally coincidentally the same day as my birthday¹ when that court day happened (¹at least I think so… I went with her to court several times and its hard to keep track of so thise memories might have blended together), like okay WTF mom. What the fuck are you doing? Literally, the judge already moved on to the next case, shut your crying ass, you’re the adult and I’m your child, stop embarassing me.

Literally not even in the courtroom anymore, she cried in front of some court staff, not even the judge.

This isn’t China anymore where people could bribe officials and/or sweet talk them or gain an advantage when you befriend an official, this is is America, she has like a very warped worldview on how thing work. Like wtf how is crying gonna change a judges decisions?

(And no we are not part of the 1% so that stuff doesn’t work either)

I confronted her about it later and she just scolded me and say “that what people do all the time to gain sympathy”…

🤨

She brought me there to help translate since the doesn’t trust the interpreters capabilities, but since I didn’t even have much of a chance to speak, so I was like "hey remember that time when it was my fucking birthday and you told me to do your stupid courtroom bullshit, and my mom was like: “so what it wasyour birthday, I did all the work giving birth to you on your day of birth, all you did was be born”

(Before anyone says go “no contact”, she also had her good moments so I can’t exactly just let go, too emotionally attached)