I want to explore anarchist ideas and lifestyle more. I’ve felt drawn to it ever since I happened to meet a staunch anarchist in person and found that I vibed quite well with what he talked about, that it seemed to closely match a lot of my own thoughts. The anarchist discussions I’ve seen here and on Reddit have also seemed remarkably reasonable and well thought out, a glimpse of actual human discussion on an increasingly dead Internet.

I want to dip my toes in. Not just with the ideas, but moreso the actual practice of it. I’d also like to chat & hang out with anarchists, see how well we’d get along. The trouble is that in my current living situation, I can’t really drive anywhere to meet people in person, so it’d have to be online. I do have a Matrix account I made a while ago but I guess jumping to a new platform which I don’t really understand scares me. I would join something if it’s vouched for, I guess, but idk what to expect or how much I can trust anyone. As for taking part in direct action / mutual aid, again all I think I can do right now is online/digital stuff. My energy level is usually pretty low, but if there’s something I could do sometimes to actually help people a little bit, I think it would be meaningful for me.

I have been told all my life that I have to work for money to survive and that “you get what you pay for” and all that, and I have always hated it. I want to work to help other people because I care, and they need it or it’s meaningful to them, and to know that I’m a part of something where people work to help me because they care. Not because everyone is on the tether of money. I’ve seen it happen naturally, almost on accident, when it was allowed to, and I want to experiment with doing it intentionally.