I do, but I don’t think so.

Honestly I don’t know, I give up on life time ago, then this last year I start “living” again by having a daily activies and job. But I deal with this like someone dead inside, I don’t feel any joy. I am not even looking for a goal. I see nothing in other people, I interact with then know that i get forget as soon the day end. I am just too scared to kill myself.

In any situation. That’s why most of adults don’t have friends. We pretending to want someone but also really want to not have our lives destroyed.

I’m glad to finally read someone that’s say something real. Its all about lying, yes I educate myself and I even try to fake a fair enough resumee. I realize this is the only way to hope for something. I don’t have special abilities, not good at math, coding boring me. I try a lot of thing in this life, I am in a training program now, but things move slowly, I’m 35, I should have a wife by now, an happy place called home, but looks so far away, looks even that I lost the train to having that life. Feeling already old even if I do nothing, life ask things I dont have. Stupid things like a car, I don’t want it, I don’t like it, but people want me to have it. This example apply to everything. In order to have something I wish for I need to want something I don’t like, that’s so stupid and I feel bad.

Still everything is now ashes, dust in the wind, nothing. All this fun hobbies are now only a meanless memory, I didn’t have nothing back, all the fun you say is become, for me, hate. Hate to have wasted my time laughing like a fool behind videogames, books, even sports, telling myself that was okay, creating a big lie that hobby was something important, just to see it ending without any result. So that’s the point, limited time sure it’s everything, but meaning is also everything in this life.

Tree with intelligence? I don’t see any reason why this trees accepts to be buildings, there will be no benefit from them to having us around.

I didn’t find any good enough hobby in this 35 years of life that didn’t fade after some time. At moment I’m very empty inside, I spend half day sleeping and other half working, everything looks expansive to do, I give up on everything, I’m keeping myself alive because I’m just scared of the pain and I can’t imagine stop existing.

Like sentient organism? A building made of flesh who have thoughts? I will stay very far from any cities.

I think human interaction change with times that tell us what we need to have to be good as friend. I am also running from people but not because I can’t deal with conflict but because shame. I spend many time to understand and shame is mine final answer. I am ashamed of my dirty apartment in my father garage, I am ashamed of not having a degree, a job, the will of even find an occupation. Then I ashamed of my body, fat and full of scars of heavy loss of height. Simple I am just a monster, that lives only because parents keep alive. What kind of friend can be possible be? That’s there reason to escape. This why not everyone can have interactions.

Too much extremist and people who just here to sell their blogs, website, onlyfans, ect.

Failure is “fracaso”. So you can exit and feeling good to have make it (éxito) or completely get destroyed by failure and never exit from your failure, living a life of despair and never be able to find the exit.

Because their code is a mess, ugly and full of bugs, that is better burn to the roots that trying to fix it.

And this the first big mistake of become a soldier in a war during this times. That’s why many europeans will not fight for their countries aswell, there isnt a rich paycheck waiting you, only misery and death, warlords games sitting on their red chairs around long table, I can’t believe that still there is someone doing the soldier, expecially the attackers, who are this people to accept invading another country? Thiefs, murders, evil guys.

Inner peace

12-13 in Europe.

“I am already dead” and “They are not your friends”

I don’t have any title, but I can tell you one thing. Best music for running are 130bpm.

Most of people use computers just for memes and emails, so yea, it is never obsoleted

Because you eating alone, no matter what

I don’t blame you, and I think I understand the pain, I’ve been repeating myself for the last ten years that I’ve already died, I still repeat it before bed. I share disinterest in the facts in the world, you are fully right in the interested only to your realities like yourself and your family, I don’t think there is much more when you were born as excluded, I feel so myself, my battle has become another. I no longer seek my happiness because I don’t think I’m suitable for it. But, you are the obvious proof that there are people with the same sensations, and then my purpose is now to try to find the closest physically to me and approach it as throwing me into a pit of thorns wirhout any fear.