I’ve been in a few situations where I need substantial help from strangers, and some have offered to help (most haven’t followed through) but I just can’t do it.
For example someone offered to help me move and I just feel super uncomfortable about it to the point where I’d rather risk something bad happening to me. Like I feel super awkward and uncomfortable accepting huge favours from strangers
Someone even offered a place to stay for me with my pets but I can’t accept it cause I feel way too awkward and like I owe them or something, like I have a huge fear and anxiety about it
Like I just feel like a disgusting parasite wasting their time and energy and it’s also humiliating
Is that normal?
You’re not wrong. I didn’t have a good solution for this, so about 4 years ago I emigrated.
Mind you, the UK is no slouch in the xenophobia department, but some extra distance between my family and the broligarchy has done us good.